We all know God to be faithful and trusting and knowing that, if we believe and trust in and on his word, he will deliver on his promises.  After all, everything that I had learned & known about God was that he honored “Covenant”.  Therefore I prayed like a crazy woman for my marriage to be saved.  I fasted and kept repeating to myself all the promises of God and trusting and believing and constantly speaking LIFE over my relationship with my husband and over the family that we had created together.  I wanted “it” more than anything!  But God wanted me, “US”, to have more in our Marriage and in our relationship than either of us could ever imagine.  So when the divorce happened I began to doubt God and berate him with questions of “Why”?  How could he let this happen?  Over time and once the calm and the reality of being divorced set in, God began to show me that sometimes he just says “No”.  I learned that he sometimes overrules our Will because his Will and his Grace are much more sufficient for us than any prayer or fasting could ever be. After the divorce and the remarriage, God showed me that he had already considered the weight of the pain that I was to experience way before the fights and the arguments had even begun.  My prayers, back then, for him to quickly FIX IT we’re going unanswered but not because he didn’t hear me or didn’t care or that I had committed some egregious wrong to make him not answer my prayers, no, it was because he had a much bigger blessing set up for me and my husband and our family.  God couldn’t, and wasn’t going to, just “quickly” fix the problem because it was our struggle and our pain that made our marriage Stronger and so much Better, the second time around.  His No was my opportunity to say Yes….to his Grace.  #MyDivorceSavedMyMarriage